Salve for the Soul: Finding Comfort in a Difficult Tarot Reading

Queen of Pentacles | (R) King of Cups | (R) Knight of Wands

Today I am reminded that I am meant to be a healer, that it’s ok for me to be a working parent, and that I have a nurturing heart.

The tarot deck I love to work with is The Light Seer’s Tarot by Chris-Anne. (Read here for how I chose this deck.) When first getting to know and connecting with this deck, I did the LWB exercise in finding my light and shadow cards. The light card inspires, makes my soul sing, and is what I aspire to be. The light card will (and does) come up when I’m on the right track. For me, this is the Queen of Pentacles. The shadow card makes me feel uncomfortable, scares me, and is the least attractive. This one will show itself when I have shadow work to do. This one is the 8 of Swords (because of course, Swords).

All that to say, my Queen made an appearance and she was absolute salve on my aching soul. She is telling me that the energy for today is that I’m on the right track. I’m gaining focus, I’m starting to put myself out there, I’m working hard, and I have no reason to feel guilty. I have a beautiful, loving, and supportive family and it's time for me to step into the spiritual worker that I’m meant to be.

Last night was a bit rough. Without going too much into the details, I was left with an overwhelming amount of self doubt and emotional exhaustion. I took a beating from my inner demons, but the reversed King of Cups reminds me to be mindful of being so emotionally disconnected, being triggered, and being temperamental. I’ve been acting like a “drama king.” Today I need to focus on this opportunity to work with my subconscious mind and dive into self-care.

Yes, things got a bit heated last night and I’ve been all over the place lately. The reversed Knight of Wands is reminding me to avoid unfocused energy, self-sabotage with fiery emotions, and recklessness.

And that is how I get called out by my cards. Time to make some tea and sit with this.